It seems like the last few weeks drama has been slapping me in the face like a wet towel. And I dont function well with this. But in the past few weeks I have also noticed I need to check myself. A VERY wise women AKA my Mom. Told me once " That offense can not be given. It can only be Taken" Words that stick out in my mind more then anything. But always seem to scurry when I need them most. I have always been a people pleaser. I care deeply what people think about me. And with that I seem to dance around things. Never give straight answers, and keep my mouth shut. In fear I might offend someone, of shock them with what I really think. And with this I see myself being this kitten like women. Instead of the Lioness I want to be. I am quick to take offense at others and hold on to grudges like they are going out of style.
I have been playing this balancing act overtime lately. Just trying to remain copacetic with everyone. And have lost focus on my "Star Player" ME.
So Im looking me in the face and saying "You can not please everyone." Its ok to have opinions.
Hello Beautiful,
ReplyDeleteYou know what I care about? Knowing YOU!
I try so hard to make sure I am not putting you in positions where you have to figure out what to say or how to be in order to please me. But you know me and my big personality and all of my opinions! I've been told more than once that I suck all the air out of a room. So, I know that sometimes that gets in the way. But I don't want it to.
Pleasing everyone is an impossible balancing act. What I wish for you is to know yourself so well and be centered in that and then your strength will rise up. During the process, you will have choices to make ... choices about how you look at others, at life. You could become quite cynical, bitter, hard ... or your love of life could remain the positive energy. I hope you choose the latter.
I believe in you! and I know that who you are inside, when you are alone and don't have to please anyone but yourself is the MOST Beautiful version of you. That's who I want to know. Will I always agree? NO! I know that you don't always agree with me. That's OK!!! The point is that our love for each other is greater than any times that we don't agree.
Don't waste time being someone else for other people. As opinionated as I am, as strong as I am, I spent a good many years trying to measure up to something else. Don't wait til you are in your forties. You will be happier and those around you will be happier.
Ok, didn't intend to write a novel as my comment.
I LOVE YOU and am SO proud of YOU!
Thank you! You can suck all the air out of my room any day. I enjoy your opinions. I feel like i grow from the things you say and speak. I want to strive to be like you. Because I see when you are passionate about something you let people know. And thats something that I have a hard time doing. Because I dont want anyone to look down, judge me in a wrong way. But thats what Im learning. Like you said Everyone my not always agree. But at least I was true to myself.
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